4.10.11

Sitting in the prayer room tonight, I was having a really hard time reading my bible. I felt dull. My eyes were going over the words, but nothing was hitting my heart. I couldn't get anything from the words. Sitting there, I put my bible to the side (maybe I'll connect through the worship... ). Nothing. I couldn't worship, I couldn't read, I couldn't even pray. So frustrated with myself, I begin to journal.

"Holy Spirit, help me. I need you. Give me hunger for you, for your word. Open my eyes to the wonderful things in the bible. I can't do anything without you." 


I set down my journal as the set ended and the next worship team came up. They started off with 'Your Love is Extravagant'. Just a little into it, I began to feel the presence of Holy Spirit and tears started rolling down my face. I didn't even know exactly why I was crying, but Holy Spirit had heard me and He was answering my prayer! After a few moments, I started thanking Him for listening to me and caring for me and tenderizing my heart. For the next half hour I simply rested in His love. My tears were prayers, a love offering to the Lord. He is a good dad.

the norm

Last night, as my roommates and I lay in our beds, we talked about the day. We all finished reading Matthew that day so that was the fresh-in-our-minds topic of conversation.

"Jesus is so FUNNY." "Man, and the disciples!? They were so thick." "It's so awesome how Jesus, every time, would stump the pharisees." "Aaaaah, I love Jesus!"

These are just an idea of how our conversation went. Is it normal to be giggling about the how witty Jesus is? Is it normal to love the word of God? Is it normal to get excited about who Jesus is?

Probably not, but it should be.